Sunday August 5, 2007
Doubt
So I'm just sitting here on a Sunday morning, skipping church because Im sick with a cold, wishing I could take some medicine, but I can't because of the baby! Today marks my first sacrifice I guess :) Anyway, this past week has been pretty eventful and I figured I would share...
In the last month or so I have been really struggling asking myself "Did God really call me to do this whole singing thing?" I mean don't get me wrong, I love it and I have a blast doing it, but it seems like booking dates and actually getting out there and doing what Im called to do is very hard. No one ever said it would be easy but COME ON!
However, I have sang 2 times in the last week and it's AMAZING how God knows exactly what I'm struggling with and He meet's me where Im at. I sang out of town last Sun. and when I offered the alter call, for the first time yet, NO ONE responded. So I go back to my seat a very sad girl, when the next thing I know, the pastor get's up and testifies about how he was convicted of some things through the message God gave me! Hello Amy, ye of little faith! So that was great but thats not the end.
I sang on the Lady Anderson Dinner Cruise this past Thursday and after the cruise was over I was back at my record table and the sweetest family from IN., came up and wrote a check for a cd. I thought something was up when the husband aked "Will you get all of this?" The wife went on to say that they were very blessed by the songs and that they believed in this ministry and when she handed me the check, she said "we want to bless you with this!" In my mind I was thinking they must have written the check for a larger amount than what the CD cost but I didnt want to be rude and look right then. So I thanked them from the bottom of my heart and we went our seperate ways. Later that evening, I got the check out just out of curiosity and was BLOWN AWAY by such a blessing! This family was apparently blessed and they saw something in my ministry that they wanted to contribute to. The monitary blessing was great and much needed, but the feeling of encouragement I got from their faith in this ministry was priceless!
Long story short...God does not call a single person that He does not equip, so Im just going to hang up all my questions and fears, and get out there and do what I do without a single doubt!